"Your present circumstances don't determine where you can can go; they merely determine where you will start."
So this is where I have landed. I'm at a place where I'm reflecting on my life and the choices I have made. But more importantly the choices I
have to make are staring me right in my face and I must make a move. I'm sometimes paralyzed by fear and uncertainty. I have to learn to let go of that thing inside me that is always waiting for the perfect moment. I remember once telling sweet man that, "it's not about perfection it's about presence". Why can't I ever take my own advice? Well I have until December before this flip flop of emotions and decision making alters my life's path.
In the meantime, I'm still grateful. Grateful for the love and support of my sweet man. I'm grateful for my family and my friends. Most importantly, I'm grateful that I have the power and the choice to make decisions. Two years ago I chopped all my hair off. This year it's not going to be as drastic I might try crochet braids *grin*. My hair has always been a snapshot of what I'm dealing with internally. It's never a dramatic issue but it's the only thing I have always been able to change immediately. Until then I'm excited for what's to come. I always keep in mind this German proverb, "to change is one thing, to change for the better is another."
